14wks Prego Today :)

When so many thoughts and feelings invade your heart and mind that you feel possessed by these annoying hormones.....




my life.

Whoa

So...ya, I'm pregnant.

Sticky

Where to begin? I have been all over the place lately.

I love being a woman. You can smile, cry, laugh, and yell and people would just shake their heads mumbling, "monthly." No, I have not acquired the pure feminine awesomeness to achieve such a goal. However, I am a Master at forgetting everything beautiful in a day, life, relationship due to a hiccup. Is this just me? "Oh, I'm so blessed and happy." **5minutes and 1 incident later** "Son of a bitch."-_-

"For what communication has light with darkness?"

Grasping the shadowed phantom
Whispering truth into the ear of despair
More pain than I can fathom
The gloomy night's mist clings to the air


Am I pulling you forward?
Or falling into the abyss?
Am I still facing toward
The light
Or am I lost in the mist

Oh, King of the Light
Chase away this hopeless night
Teach me my birthright
Give me armor to fight

Though weary
My hope lies in you
For when you are near me
I know your words are true

So show me that you never leave
Reveal your everlasting seed

Planted in the fertile ground within my hand
The ground that will stand
Beneath his feet
That will forever defeat
The shadowed monster
That says he's dead
The wicked presence
Inside his head

Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Your Anger

"Don't let the sun go down on your anger"



I capture the rays of the setting sun in a jar,
I bleed and cry upon them
Till I've gone too far
Telling myself they'll light my way in the dark
I let this anger melt my heart

Every memory is a speck of light
Swirling in the darkest night

New words pierce and join the glow
Rare at first
But now we both know:

This jar is burning
Swallowing my soul

Can I throw it at the night?
Awake with it shattered come morning light?

Will the glass
Though empty
Pierce my tender flesh?
When I try to move on
Try to do my best

Frustrated

Signs I'm Pissed


Silence
Randomly taking a shower
Blogging
Crying
Did I say silence??

Rambling

I'll move soon. I think I'll be near a community center, which means socializing! Yay!

Finding Myself

Have you ever woke up, as if from a dream, and realized that you have become dependent upon your spouse/bf/gf? I can't drive, so it's hard for my day not to wait to start until my husband gets home(also can't work).

So, when he goes off with friends, I find myself feeling really lonely. I moved out of state to marry him and haven't made friends yet. I'm having a hard time getting over this slump. I know I'm being selfish. But, the first step is realizing the problem, right?